Mental Exhaustion

Yes I know....I have been keeping you waiting and anxious for my next blog entry. You'll have to forgive me because I'm suffering from extreme mental exhaustion. I have taken a lot of time over the past week to reevaluate my life and figure out which direction I wanted to go in regards to my future. I haven't slept much because I was having a hard time keeping my thoughts under control. I've been stressing about so much that it has kept me awake for the better part of the past few days.

I've typed out a few entries over the past couple of days only to delete them before I posted them because I felt they weren't worth reading. One was discussing how I felt about the bullying and suicides that have been going on in schools across the U.S. It seems like every time I turn on the news I am seeing a story about another kid who committed suicide because they were bullied. Another entry was about selfish vs. selfless people in the world today. I talked about how the selfish people took advantage of the selfless people because they knew they could take from us (I say us because I'm selfless and I'm always being taken advantage of). The 3rd entry was about Tru TV and how unrealistic their so called reality TV is. Shows like Operation Repo, Worked Up, Hardcore Pawn, and Mama's Roadhouse claim to all be true but if you've seen any of them you'll know they were most likely all staged. The scenarios that play out in each of these shows is so off the wall, crazy, and frequent that it's hard to believe anything that goes on in them.

I think I'm finally ready to get some sleep though. It's currently 5:35 AM (as I'm typing) and I have a feeling I will be sleeping most of the day today. For the first time in over a week I think I am finally tired enough to get some much needed DEEP sleep. I've been sitting here in front of my computer for the past 2 hours, staring at my screen, suffering from writer's block. It's rare that I don't have something to write about....even if it's something small. My thoughts have finally slowed down to the point where I can relax so I think I'm going to take advantage of this time and go to bed.

If any of you would like me to elaborate on my thoughts and feelings on the different things I had written about and then deleted let me know and I will retype my entries. Even if nobody says they want me to post anything I will probably still do it eventually. But that will come AFTER I get the much welcomed rest I need. So I'm out people. If you need me you can find me in Dreamland....which just so happens to look a lot like the video from Katy Perry's "California Girls".........................OH YEAH!